Bouncing Back!

I met Chris last night and it was an absolute, fucking, nightmare. I wanted to get my phone back (crappy old iPhone that he's using but I want for sentimental reasons) and I had to return this key-thing of his. What should have been a very simple exchange turned into a wretched hour-long sit at a bar and then a fucking horrible dinner experience at an otherwise-great tapas restaurant.

Basically, I don't think I am capable of being civilized to him anymore. He went from being 'grovelly' to annoyingly sarcastic to pissed off at me! What the flying fuck did I do wrong that gives him any right to angry? Ridiculous.

After these two horrendous hours, I finally just told him that all I wanted to hear was a damn good explanation for his cheating and lying on me again, and that he might as well come up with a good lie and make it worth my while because regardless of what he says, I would never want to see him again. His answer?

"Well, whatever, I'm just a dumb fuck to you...."

And that is when I collected my shit and left because I realized that it would be pointless trying to extract a 'reason' for a guy like that. There are no reasons -- what could there possibly be? A cheater is just a cheater, full stop. It's practically in his blood to cheat, lie, and get away with it. He cannot fathom that his behavior is wrong, hurtful, despicable and immoral. Because the bottom line is that he's just out for as much good times as possible.

Let me digress for a second: I don't care and I wouldn't care if I knew that him and I were in a casual relationship where we could see other people. But he acts as though he has to own me, and is blindly jealous of every single male friend I have, and gets upset whenever I was with 'other guys'. He, on the other hand, was absolutely free to do whatever he wanted, and didn't seem to get it when I get pissed off -- how the hell is that fair?

At the end of the day, I don't think he's a very smart person...!

Unfortunately, even after all that lameness, we didn't manage to do that damned exchange!! I am so tempted to just tell him to forget about it altogether but...fuck!

Anyway, I ended up meeting some friends of Giovanni's; all these cool Italian guys who were out for a drink at Oxford St in Paddington [read about that here!] One of them proved to be particularly interesting -- the fact that he's attractive obviously had nothing to do with it at all. ;)

And by the end of the night (or morning I suppose), I finally realized that being single in Australia is definitely the right way to be. Because wasting my time on a sad sack like Chris is only causing me to miss out on fun people, fun times, and doing what I truly want without having to answer to a psycho, possessive bastard!

Hopefully tonight will turn out to be just as interesting as last night -- check back in tomorrow. Cheers :)